Not Gone
April 11, 2006 | 8:48 P.M.

This was the longest lapse in my writing this year and hopefully it will continue to be so throughout the rest of the year. Unfortunately the new job has had me running to no end. But I am seeing some monetary benefits. Although I am already thinking that I need another job. I am sure that I will get plenty more into it down the line. And it's hard to explain exactly what's going on with it...but I spent 75% of today's shift trying to think of how I could get another job overnight to go to that one tomorrow instead. I know I'll get more into it later.

It is so great to have my car back and running. Although I do want to work on saving up enough money to be able to replace it down the road when I'll have to. It cost way too much money this time but it was still a bit cheaper than buying another car.

I look forward to having Holidays and weekends off (if I make it long enough..after 6 months you get paid holidays off. I could get paid to open presents on Christmas in a manner of speaking!). Although I had to work a shift on Saturday due to a BAAAAAAAD day last Wedneday. And Sundays are busy with band practices and currently recording as well. Although recording is AWESOME! And practices are important. But it ended up being my only day off and still didn't feel like a day off hah

The whole waking up at 4:30am deal got wearing very quickly! The past two days I ended up sleeping an extra half hour, catching the train after the one I had been catching the first two and a half weeks. I was so overly exhausted and that definitely wasn't helping me want to keep this job. I am not sure why it's so tough. It's not a difficult job. But my mind won't wrap itself around the concepts well enough for some reason. But consciously I know that I know what I am doing a whole lot better than my mind is making me feel like I do. Sometimes I hate my mind.

That's about it for right now. Not a whole lot of complete thoughts and not terribly insightful but I am trying to ease my way back into posting daily. After we move it should happen without even needing to think about it. Suddenly I will have twice as many hours 'free' time than I currently do with the travel time. It'll get better. One way or another.