Entry For The Masses
February 02, 2006 | 11:30 P.M.

Okay. Warning. This may be a little on the long side. Plenty of stuff to cover about the current state of all things that are me-related. I am overjoyed to hear that a couple people are perusing my posts. I want you to know that I do post here for my own posterity...to help me remember in the future the things that lead to me being wherever it is that I am when I will be reading all of these posts. But a good amount of stuff that I post in here would never be for me. They are things that are big enough to stand out in my mind. Perhaps for eternity. And if not, perhaps they weren't meant to be remembered anyway. So here it goes...

Please keep in mind that I am listening to the "newer" Vertical Horizon CD which I may have to blame on some of the stuff that I committ to the diary tonight. If it gets weird...please forgive me, skip ahead and continue reading when it becomes sane to you again.

Yes, Jenn and I should be able to maintain a fine friendship as we 'ended' it when we did. Before either of us resented the other for that one little thing. In fact, she already bought us tickets to the Flogging Molly show on the 13th. They are also playing here on the 14th but South Street is overcrowded on Valentine's Day so we figure that it's best to go to the 13th show. We are working on Alkaline Trio tickets which would be awesome because they amazed me last time as I had expected them to. So I highly anticipate another shot at seeing them.

Are we over forever? *shrugs* Hard to say but you never know. I am not sure that my inability to allow her to do what she feels the need to do which change but you never know..something could change for either one of us at some point. But we figure this way that although we want to be together, something could very well happen to ruin the friendship and definitely kill the chance for anything else. I am not sure what I am going to do love-wise. I do not handle being single for too long very well. Which may or may not explain why I haven't been single for more than 5 weeks since I was 18. I don't think it necessarily explains it because I never ended up going out with a girl just because I didn't want to be lonely. I really did want to go out with them. But if anyone does catch my attention for now and does want to persue something, I wouldn't plan on doing anything about it until after I have a place of my own (with Chad). I think that sounds fair as of right now.

I am setting a goal of getting myself a second job within the next month. I should have a little over two months left here before I need to move out of this apartment. I want to find another job and start working it for a month before I have to move out. This will let me see how many hours I can handle of each place (and leave time for the band) without frying my brains as I am definitely tired of doing that and will refrain from doing it again for as long as I can. This will allow me to see how much money I can expect to put into an apartment yet still live comfortably otherwise.

I went to Lansdale this afternoon to take my mom my W-2's. She still does my taxes for me because it takes only an hour or so for her to do them. By Sunday she should tell me how much of a refund I should expect and when I should expect to receive it. As of now I believe that the money will go towards my portion of a security deposit for a new apartment.

She gave me an apartment guide with listings in Philly and back towards my hometown for us to go over. The guide lists amenities and often times how much the security deposit is (if there is one) and how much rent is which will help us out greatly. She told me that I can have her bed from our previous house since I no longer have one (we threw it out when we moved out of there because it was too old) as well as the blue recliner which is AWESOME! I am really excited to have that. I may be able to use the microwave stand that we've had for many years which is great because it's very sturdy. For now we'd be set with TV's and my entertainment center.

If we can't afford to move into a place immediately after I have to move out of here, Jenn had told me that I could stay at her new place. It will most likely be a one bedroom place but will hopefully have a livingroom where I can sleep on the couch/bed we had bought just the evening before we ended the relationship. It'll be bittersweet to sleep on it perhaps, but it will be a place to stay in the meantime.

Onto other things.

Well my band hasn't had an actual practice in atleast three weeks. But we did finally get together last night to do some discussing of various things. It went pretty well. There was one thing in particular that we couldn't hit but it went fine otherwise. We discussed getting a permanent keyboardist/percussionist to play other percussion aside from drums which John will continue to play. We want to round out our sound as it has the potential to do and we want to make the most of our potential which is A LOT. We played a few songs acoustically to work on the vocals without the 'distraction' of us playing our instruments in an attempt to finetune our vocals. It was sounding almost exactly how it should. We also discussed the matter of practice space. It appears that everyone but one person so far has ok'ed us playing in the music room at Brian's (our bassist)parents' house. His brother's band practices there. We just need to hear back from his band's drummer to make sure that it's okay to use his kit and we're good! We should be practicing on Sunday and we will use a DAT recorder to see if we can get some better recordings of our music. To improve upon the sound we'd gotten from the other 8 songs that we'd recorded that one practice a couple of months ago. The prospects thrill me. Which is awesome, eh?

I am actually excited about the Olympics coming up. Generally I had been more into a higher number of Summer Olympic events. But I need something to cheer and something sports related to really get behind and to make me proud. I am excited to see how my country will do. You may see a change around here on my diary having to do with this special time. But we will see.

Well I think that's about it for now. I do believe that this entry was longer than any given month's worth of entries combined from last year. That makes me proud! Give it up for me!

I will be back. Count on it.